Struggling with Faith?
March 14, 2011 § Leave a comment
I love reading the Psalms. I think the main reason is because the writer almost comes across as bi-polar and I totally relate. In one chapter he will be talking about how the Lord has his enemies in his hand and they will not defeat him and then in the next chapter he is talking about how his enemies will overtake him because he doesn’t know where the Lord is. Reading Psalms is a roller-coaster ride of emotions that most of us can relate to.
I think that we would be lying if we said that our faith was always in tact. It would be difficult for me to take someone seriously if they told me that they never struggled to trust God in certain situations. We all have those days when we feel like God must have left us. Everything that can go wrong is going wrong and we can’t catch a break. As if the problems in front of us weren’t enough we start to question our relationship with God because we know that our faith is weak. Obviously we want to have faith and we want to trust God for everything but in the middle of the struggle it is difficult. But what if your moments of faithlessness did not disqualify you from being counted faithful by God?
In Chapter two of the book of Genesis we read a story about Abraham, his wife Sarah, and Abimelech the King Gerar. To summarize the story, Abraham and Sarah were traveling. They came into Gerar and Abraham knew that the King would think his wife was hot. Abraham was afraid that the king would kill him so that he could have Sarah for himself so he devised a plan. Abraham convinced Sarah to tell everyone that she was his sister. Just as Abraham had suspected the king thought Sarah was hot and he wanted her. When he heard that Sarah was Abraham’s sister he brought her to the palace. In the middle of the night God spoke to Abimelech in a dream and told him that Sarah was actually Abraham’s wife. Abimelech was furious that Abraham lied to him and could have cost him so much. Abraham explained why he lied and long story short, they made peace with each other.
The crazy thing about this is that all through scripture Abraham is said to be counted righteous because of his faith. How can this be? He wasn’t even able to trust God to spare his life so he lied and created a mess for everyone. The point that I want to make is that your entire life is not summed up in a moment. We will all struggle to completely trust God in certain situations but God is interested in the big picture. Overshadowing that weak moment were many moments when Abraham trusted God entirely.
When we find ourselves in a situation where faith is lacking it is so easy to feel like we’ve let God down. We often question whether or not our faith is authentic. If it was then we shouldn’t have such a hard time trusting God, right? Faith isn’t situational. We don’t lose faith and they regain it in the next hurdle. We can be sure that we have faith because God said he gave it to us. We have to be aware that there will be times in your Christian journey that you will find yourself in a place that your faith isn’t big enough to maintain complete trust in God. It will grow your faith. It is good for you. It will help you through something later in life. The fact that you aren’t completely sure if God has things under control does not mean that he doesn’t. He does. Allow your faith to be stretched in the weak times. Don’t beat yourself up about it. Just talk to God. He still considers you faithful.